Two friends, both on a different coast, sitting in hospital rooms, waiting for a loved one to recover. The chances of complete recovery are very slim. Life, as they have known it, has changed forever. What are they left with? What greets them this morning?
They are greeted, this day….with a new day. This new day is full of questions, it is full of waiting, it is full of uncertainty. Will she live? Do I need to find long term nursing care, hospice care? What will our days look like? What will my days look like? Is this the reason we have been together all these years? Will our resources last?
God, where are you in the middle of this? God, why have you been so silent? God, do you care? What are you wanting me to learn from this? The questions rage inside, erupting into tears of frustration and groans of desolation.
In all of this there are messages from Scripture that seem to rattle around in my head and cause me to wonder. “I will never leave you or forsake you.” “Ask whatever you will and it will be given to you.” “Rejoice in the Lord, again I say rejoice.” ” Have no anxiety about anything but in everything let your request be made known to God.” “Ask and you will receive and your joy will be complete.” “Never will I leave you. Never will I forsake you.”
This morning, in the silence, there is life in review. I admit that I do not understand very much. But I do understand that You, the Creator, have blessed me with life! You have called me, You have empowered me, You have loved me and You have allowed me to love others. Out of the middle of my current chaos, I am aware of the incredible gifts that You have allowed me to experience. You have allowed the life & love of others to speak to me of Your love.
Now Lord, as You call me to love this person…..help me to love her unconditionally. Help me to understand that I am called to be Your presence, in her life. Lord, help my friends, as they sit in that hospital room, to know Your love and to understand that they are the conduit of that love. Lord help all of us to be Your agents of Your unconditional, reconciling, healing love….this day. Therefore, knowing that You are doing something in and through us…….may we rejoice and be glad. You have blessed us to be a blessing!